I really miss having people to talk to when that anxiety/overwhelmed feeling hits. Those days when you just feel the weight of your faults. I know I’m probably overreacting and I’ll be fine, but it’s just hitting hard particularly tonight.
I started school at a place where I was kicked out for poor academic performance once. As the rigor of my assignments are getting harder, I’m retreating and not doing well. I guess I’m just scared and a little unsure of how to handle the stress of everything that’s coming at me. And I have a tendency to run away from things that I don’t understand or am not good at. And I can’t do that anymore. Adjusting is hard. School is hard. I just don’t wanna fuck up again.